The Lessons in Life (You Didnt Even Realise)

Taking the time to think about my thoughts alot more lately, I have realised how proud I am right now, of so many things that are going on around me! Confident too, which is something I havent felt for quite some time now! With the combination of these two I cant help but be happy with my life, the people in it and where its going!

Proud ... Of Taylah! Everyday she is showing me more of the qualities she is developing as a person, a human being with feelings and emotions, just like the rest of us. Sometimes I wish I could change the attitude or behaviour, but her more important qualities are really starting to shine through! I am VERY proud of the latest life lesson my not so little cherub has learnt. She came home from school a couple of weeks ago and told me how some of the other kids at school had started to pick on her best friend Reyne because she is small and cant reach the monkey bars, she also commented that because she got her school uniform made to fit her, her dress did not have the logo on it and the kids were teasing her about that too. She seemed quite upset by the other kids behaviour, she didnt seem to understand why they could be so mean about something so silly ... Ofcourse this made me proud, but, the thing that made me most proud was a conversation we had last night! Taylah confessed to me that the kids at school are now also picking on her because she sticks up for Reyne, she so innocently told me how Reyne was her best friend and she really liked the fun that they had together, and how she is going to stick with Reyne because she didnt want to be nasty like some of the other girls. My heart melted, I believe there may have even been a tear in my eye. As I layed there and comforted her I realised that my little girl had made such a courageous decision, one that I am so proud of, it is not fair that these kids can pick on such a sweet, kind hearted little girl for something so trivial, and I am so happy that Taylah was able to see through the nasty girls, and stick to her heart! Reyne has a heart of gold, and I am so very glad that the two girls bonded at the start of the year, she comes from a loving family, and doesnt have a nasty bone in her body, it makes me so mad to think she is being teased over her height. Ofcourse it hurts to know that the kids are picking on Taylah too, and for something so rediculous is beyond me, but it makes me smile to know that she can see people for who they really are, I like that she can stand up for herself and for the ones that she cares about, and I especially like it that she didnt conform to fit in, and be in the popular crowd, instead she chose true friendship, one that I hope will last forever <3.
Also, she has nearly survived her first year at school, prep maybe, but I was worried it would be a big step, I realise now, it was probably a bigger step for me, and yes, I too survived it. I have missed her alot, but seeing her blossom and grow at school has also been nice to watch!

Proud ... Of my husband! Who has for over 6 years now, worked his butt off to get somewhere in his career, and boy has it really paid off. For someone who was constantly put in the back seat, while he waited patiently for his turn to get out there and show them what hes made of, he has finally done exactly that! And in true fashion too I might add, he has really shown the bosses whos really boss! Moving to Rocky, to run a struggling pub, that the big bosses thought had no hope in recovering, he has managed to get it to #2 out of 97 pubs Australia wide! Now thats an acheivment if you ask me! And its still going strong! He is already making all the right moves to get that bonus again next year!
Good job babe, I am proud of you, and perhaps I just dont say it enough!

Proud ... Of Felicity! ... Even if there is nothing to report, she still makes me smile every single day, even when I mad at her, she can still squirm one out of my stubborn face!

Proud ... Of Myself! Confident ... In myself! And Content ... With my life! Finally!
So many chapters responsible for my dwindling confidence, have slowly disappeared! Although the job front side of things did seem to take its toll on things, something finally came through! Hooray! My confidence finally found the most part of me again! I was happy, even though it is just a small job, something put that fire back, I could honestly wake up in the mornings excited that I was that one day closer to starting my job. Then, when I was asked to meet up with the set supervisor, I had high hopes! And thank God they were not crushed! At the meeting nothing was mentioned, just spoke about how I was organising child care around work and what hours best suited me, and lots of general small talk. I walked away from the meeting, not worried, but slightly crushed ... Until about 10 minutes later when my regional manager rang me and said that Kate wanted me to be her 2IC ... Oh, THANK GOODNESS!!! I cant tell you exactly how 'through the roof' my confidence skyrocketed right then and there! I know its nothing huge, but its honestly what I needed, I feel like I can take on the world at this moment, and hopefully this will make future job opportunities much easier! Suddenly I have forgotten what no confidence is like, and it feels GREAT to be back :) !!!