Having a moment, I'm just a sook!

Gaaaahhh ... Trying so hard to be brave, it's so hard! The girls got teary quite a few times tonight, I was able to hold it together for them, but failed miserably once they had fallen asleep! I felt like I was doing so well today too, I have missed him from day one, but felt like I had it together! How do people do this all the time? It's only been 3 days! Right now I would do anything for a hug, and so would the girls  ... Only 5 more weeks and 4 days ... I wish so much that I wasn't such a sook 
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day for us all, then work on Wednesday, fingers crossed that keeps me busy ... Trying to be positive now 